Only 119 days until my due date. With each day that passes, I’m (we) are getting more and more excited to meet our new little boy. After having myself convinced that I was going to have a girl, the idea of having another boy has been completely absorbed by our family. I still sigh when I see cute headbands, but let’s be honest. I have always felt like a boy mom. And I do love beanies and flannel shirts more than headbands. Another little boy is the perfect fit for our family.
I can’t wait to know the little boy who is growing inside of me. I want to know his personality. Will he be another version of Cole? A quiet gentle soul balanced out with a need to be perfect combined with a crazy artistic side. Will he be another version of my husband Christian? A philosopher and a hippy at his core balanced out with a need for adrenaline rushes inspired by nature combined with a crazy daredevil side. Or maybe, just maybe, he will have a little bit of me in him (although I think I passed on all my traits to Cole).
Will he be a happy baby? a needy baby? An easy go lucky baby? A good sleeper? A good eater? Will he have colic like Cole? Will he have a head of hair or a big bald head? Please let him be happy on long runs in his BOB stroller! Will he love nature as much as all 3 of us love nature? Will he come alive in the water like Cole and Christian? Will he be creative? scientific? a thinker? athletic?
What I long for the most is to observe my baby boy observing the world. I can’t wait to watch him take in the world around him. I can’t wait to watch him learn from life. I can’t wait to see him laugh at Cole. I can’t wait to see him fall in love with his dad. I can’t wait for mommy and baby moments that only belong to us.
In 119 more days (plus or minus a few), our family is going to be even more complete. I love how life works. My life felt so complete when I had Cole. The two of us were my perfect world. Then one day I stumbled upon Christian. He instantly made our perfect world even more perfect. It became even more perfect when Christian and I got married. It then felt more complete when we bought our house and when we got our dog. Now our baby will be joining us at the end of the year.
My life is happy – knowing that I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be in this world – knowing that I have 3 boys, a husband and two sons, to love and love me back. I wouldn’t want to be anywhere but here right now.
i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)i fear no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is youhere is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars aparti carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)– e. e. cummings ~
I’m feeling great! Not too tired. Not too uncomfortable. My lower back is feeling really weak lately but I’m hoping yoga will do the trick this week. No crazy cravings to report. I have to remind myself that I can’t eat anymore until I feel full. If I do, I instantly feel sick. Small meals all day long is key! My feet and hands are definitely swollen. I’m going to miss flip-flops when the weather cools off for the winter. Mister Moo is kicking up a storm. He loves to roll around in my stomach. Last Friday night was the first time we actually saw my stomach moving. His kicks and rolls were visible on the outside. LOVE!
AND………We have a NAME! We aren’t sharing yet (at least not on the internet) because I don’t think we are used to hearing ourselves say it out loud yet. I’m lousy at keeping my own secrets, so if you corner me and ask you will probably get an answer in about 2 seconds! You just won’t find it on my blog or Facebook yet. A few hints to help keep you in suspense: It’s a family name. It sounds great with Cole. And it fulfills Christian’s only request that the name fit a boy who wears flannel shirts. I absolutely love it…I just have to get used to hearing the name come out of my mouth!
(I couldn’t resist using our family engagement photos! I can’t wait for baby bump photos this fall! Deanna Casey is by far the best if you need a good photographer – and no. She didn’t ask me to say that!)